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The Larry David Of Indie Rock

08/23/2010

This tour has been great. I have really enjoyed playing all of these shows solo. It took a little while to get used to it but I can dig it.

I have always wanted to drive around the country all by myself.
I have been in a van for years galavanting around the good old U.S.A with my various indie/punk/whatever bands and that was always a bunch of fun but it also had a major down side.

In the past when my bands have toured I would always get super stressed out.
I never really care if the show is a shit bomb or if it is a major success. I will not lie Major success is way more fulfilling but mostly it does not matter much to me.
What would matter to me would be if the guys in the band were having fun or enjoying themselves. I am the guy who throws a party and is so concerned about the well being of others at said party I end up not having all the much fun.

I am a giver

I am not bragging because honestly this trait is not really all that good of a trait. It is most likely deeply rooted in selfishness and pride. I want other people to have a good time that way they will praise me for being the reason they had a good time.

I believe this as of right now but ask me in a week or two and I may have a completely different answer.

I do know this, driving around for roughly 3 months alone in a car will kinda fuck you up but in a very good way. I think it is super important to be alone with your thoughts and deconstruct the way you feel about music,life,God,love and all the other things that roll around your brain.

When I say you I really mean me. I usually speak in the general sense but right now I am completely talking about me and if any of you actually like the music I have made or the blogs I have written then I guess you kinda dig the things I have to say.

I say many things!

Being in a van with 5 other guys is great but I was always waiting for something horrible to happen

Engine blowing up at the grand canyon, transmission going out in Kentucky
multiple tow trucks,shitty hotels living on stolen subway stamp cards (anyone remember those) It is a touring life and thousands of bands go thru this all the time.
There is something to be said for the struggle, sometimes you just fight for the sake of fighting.

......but being alone in my fairly new Nissan Altima knowing that I will get the the next venue unscathed and even if I only make 50 bux a night that is enough money to get me from point A to point B and even have a decent meal
It is a whole new ballgame

I enjoy talking but I only have about 2 hours of it in me a day
TOPS!
I am really enjoying driving around, stopping whenever I want to not worrying about anything

I feel so care free
it is so refreshing

I have never enjoyed a tour more then this one
but it feels less like a tour and more like some sort of personal Sojourn

Nothing is better then when your band is clicking and the machine that is a wall of rock sound is at full force. It is the greatest high I have ever experienced and I have experienced quite a few highs.

When you got your band on stage and you feel like you can do anything and that everything is magical,mystical and tangible it is a feeling that can not be faked or rehashed......

When I am on stage with my telecaster to a bar full of people who have no idea who I am and they are all wondering out loud
"where is your band?" it is a whole different challenge both mentally and physically

I am having a great time
I just wanted to check in with you guys and gals and let you know what was going on

Tour still has about 4 weeks left so try and make it to one of these shows
all the dates are on gasolineheart.com

I hope this has not come across as self important because if you know me that is the exact opposite feeling I try to get across
I think once you realize you are insignificant that is when you have the opportunity to do something worth while
again I am not saying I am doing anyone/anybody or anything any good